Where can you run to escape from yourself?

You know, right now I feel like crap. I learned that hardly anyone at my church likes me. That's rough. I feel so down, like I've sunk to the lowest part of me. Like no one really cares or loves me. Teenagers are stupid. All of 'em. Even me. I'm stupid. People can be so repulsive sometimes. I know I can too. I just can't believe some of the stuff that has happened. I'm not mad at anyone anymore, but I feel almost as if I have nothing left now to lose. I want to go somewhere far. Runaway, faraway. I feel like I'm in a hole that I didn't even dig. I feel like I was skipping through a meadow happy to be alive then someone came along and dug a drench for me to fall into and never get out of. Gosh, what now? I'm not angry, at all. I'm just letdown. But hey, I guess that's where a song comes in and reminds me of Who I'm living for, and that's it's not myself or my friends:

The Beautiful Letdown - Switchfoot.

It was a beautiful let down
When I crashed and burned
When I found myself alone unknown and hurt
It was a beautiful let down
The day I knew
That all the riches this world had to offer me
Would never do

In a world full of bitter pain and bitter doubt
I was trying so hard to fit in, fit in,
Until I found out
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
But I don't belong

It was a beautiful let down
When you found me here
Yeah for once in a rare blue moon I see everything clear
I'll be a beautiful let down
That's what I'll forever be
And though it may cost my soul
I'll sing for free
We're still chasin our tails and the rising sun
And our dark water planet's
Still spinning in a race
Where no one wins and no one's one

I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I'm gonna set sight and set sail for the kingdom come
I will carry a cross and a song where I don't belong
But i don't belong
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Kingdom come
Your kingdom come

Won't you let me down yeah
Let my foolish pride
Forever let me down

Easy living, not much like your name
Easy dying, you look just about the same
Won't you please take me off your list
Easy living please come on and let me down

We are a beautiful let down,
Painfully uncool,
The church of the dropouts
The losers, the sinners, the failures and the fools
Oh what a beautiful let down
Are we salt in the wound
Let us sing one true tune

I don't belong here
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
Feels like I don't belong here
Let me down
Let me down
Feels like I'm let down
Let me down.
Cuz I don't belong here
Please
Won't you let me down?

The kingdom come: that's where I belong.
*alldone!*