Don't let go tonight.

Woah, it's been a while since I last blogged.
So right now, life sorta sucks. On Monday, one of my best friends moved out of town. I'm super sad. And sad doesn't even begin to explain. I mean, I didn't think we'd all be this sad. But people are sobbing left and right. I don't think I went outside but once yesterday. It's really pathetic. He was one of my greatest friends ever. It's not like he had the greatest sense of moral values, but he was nice. I never got mad at him for being mean. It seems like when everyone around me was mad about some stupid thing that I had said, or drama had been started that was unnecessary, he was the one person who wasn't part of it. He never got mad at me. I'll admit, I thought that he was just trying to be nice, and that he really didn't like me. No one likes me much. I've got a couple friends here and there, but definitely not a lot. And a lot of them live in a different state. But he always seemed to enjoy my company. We would talk and have a good time. I really love the kid. I'm not in love, I just love him, like you love a brother. So I'm pretty sad.
It was strange cause for the few days before they moved, I wasn't at all sad. We hung out a ton, had a lot of fun, talked about random crap, yada yada yada. Then when we were driving out of their driveway on Monday after helping them pack, watching them crawl up into their packed up moving van, that's when it hit me. They aren't coming back for a long time. I'm not going to see them at church. When everyone gets mad at me, there won't be that one person that I can forget everything with. It's gonna be really tough.
But I can't die. I don't want to just curl up and die. I want to find a way to move on a little. I don't want to forget them, I just can't let it flood my mind.
I'm gonna get up and do something. I woke up a little earlier today, so I'm gonna do something. I have to.
Thank God for sending me Switchfoot and Jon Foreman. I might be curled up in my bed right now if it weren't for that Godsend.
Speaking of which, here's the song.

Golden - Switchfoot.

She's alone tonight with a bitter cup and
She's undone tonight, she's all used up,
She's been staring down the demons
Who've been screaming
She's just another so and so,
Another so and so

You are golden,
You are golden, Child
You are golden,
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)

There's a fear that burns like trash inside
And your shame of the curse that burns your eyes
You've been hiding in your bedroom,
Hoping this isn't how the story has to go
It's not the way it goes,
It's your book now,

You are golden,
You are golden, Child
You are golden,
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)

You're a lonely soul in a land of broken hearts
You're far from home, it's a perfect place to start

(Yeah!)
(Burn)
(Burn, Burn!)

So this final verse is a contradiction
And the more we learn the less we know

We've been talkin' about a feeling,
We both know inside but couldn't find the words
I couldn't write this verse,
I've seldom been so sure,
About anything before

Golden,
You are Golden, Child

You are Golden,
(Don't let go)
(Don't let go tonight)

This world is a dead man down (Golden, you are)
Every breath is a fading crown we wear (Golden, Child, you are)
Like some debilitated king (Golden, don't let go)
Don't let go tonight

The Earth spins and the moon goes round (Golden, you are)
The green comes from the frozen ground (Golden, Child, you are)
And everything will be made new again (Golden)
(Like freedom in spring) (Golden, Golden)

Hey, like freedom in spring, (Golden, you are, hey)
Like freedom in spring (Golden, Child, you are)
(Gold...)

Thank God! It's all gonna be alright.